Take me out

I'm not sure how I'm relating to this blog.  Probably more like a personal journal than a public newsletter.  So I did not finish that thread about going to New York, coming back to work, and starting to date through okcupid.  Well, I guess that gets us all up to speed...

I'm pondering what this is to be dating someone, the second guy I met off okcupid, and how it goes.  I think I'm getting the hang of not freaking out about the future and what will be.  And the guy I've been seeing is actually quite adept at talking about things and wanting to hear how I am feeling.  Imagine that?!

But tonight I was on my own and the friends I called were all busy and rather than stay home alone I decided to take myself out--on a date.  I went and got dinner at a Thai restaurant in Berkeley, then went to see a movie, the Easy A.  When I go see movies by myself it is usually out of feelings of extreme anguish and loneliness, but I must say lately I've really enjoyed it.  No waiting around for someone to see what I want to see or scoff at my low brow selections.  And I can take as much or as little time as I want whereever I go.

Which brings me to my contemplation about dating.  It's funny to hang out with someone in the hopes you will develop feelings of like and eventually love.  I've been finding that I really like hanging out with myself.  I like my interests.  I like how my clothes and hair look.  I like the books and comics I read.  We have a lot in common, myself and me.  If this okcupid love affair ends, I think I will be content with this love affair with myself.

So then after the movie I went to a bookstore and bought way too many books.  There were still a few I was totally lusting after but reasoned that it would have to be for another tryst of mad book-buying.  I got the following books and comics:

- Just So You Know #1 and #2 by Joey Alison Sayers (self-published comics about the author transitioning into a woman.  They are great!)
- The Vagrants by YiYun Li (she is compared to Chechov and Tolstoy on the cover.  Woah)
- The Real Thief by William Steig (like Abel's Island.  Aw)
- Mariscal Design (a collection of the artist's designs.  only $1)
- The Animal Story Book by Andrew Lang (I was obsessed with his fairy books when I was in elementary school.  Maybe one of those things where it will be shocking how culturally incompetent the stories will read to me now.)