Resolution

One of the New Year's Resolutions I made in January was to be a better daughter.  I think I just broke it.  So close to the end of the year too.  My mom asked me to help proofread my dad's blog posts.  He is blogging now about Chinese medicine, herbs, and acupuncture to help advertise for their clinic.  I told my mom that I thought they should hire an editor then, not just for proofreading but to help with editing content.  I told her that I didn't like doing proofreading for them in the past because it bothered me that some of my dad's writing wasn't good and that there was nothing that could be done about it and that people were going to read it.  She said she would talk it over with my dad.  And that it is ok if I don't want to do it.  But then I thought about it and maybe it is not just that I am trying to protect my dad from derision, but more that I'm ashamed of his English.  Bad daughter!  I fancied myself as being assertive and standing up for my needs, as opposed to being told what to do and just be passive aggressive about my unhappiness, but then I think I am just that Asian American kid that doesn't want the other kids to hear her parents speak and know that they don't speak perfect English.

So I think I'll resolve to try this resolution again.  And get better at this being a good daughter stuff a little more every year.